Monday, April 28, 2008

Last Summer on the Farm...

The bed is in the room. So is everything else. I should take a picture. Our rechargeable batteries are uncharged and I fear the phone's pictures will never find their way out, so I'll just describe it for now. My main conclusion is that the room is so much bigger than I thought it was. I thought the bed would take up more than half the room, but it's probably just a third. The room is a nice minty green color, although the sample calls it "Weathered Copper."


I'm talking about our new abode, in case someone needs caught up. We recently moved to a farm in Colocord, Oklahoma, to live with our friend Naomi's parents, for approximately 1 year, since Jesse's job assignment is now in Siloam Springs. Breathe....


Which is what it feels a lot easier to do, now that I can go be in my own room for the first time since we've been here...well, we could be in it, but it was void of a 'proper' ceiling, floor, or anything else when we first came (again, pictures would have helped). Just uninhabitable. But with an amazing view. Which is why I asked if we could have that room in the first place. I went in, it was obviously the 'extra' room, without a floor and only a few patches of drywall on the walls, and full of items meant for the impending garage sale. But all I could see was the perfect view of the pasture and the little goats right out there, less than 20 feet away. I think I have mentioned these goats before, but I really do remain impressed with their presence. Today I had a goat encounter, actually.

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

Moving Day

I just looked at my phone and noticed it's April 23rd, my biological dad's birthday. And while I couldn't feel more estranged from him, I saw the look of a dad in Bruce's eyes as he spoke of how he and Audrey wanted us to come and be in their home for this coming year. Yesterday, my prayer with Laura was centered on the fact that Jesus came to introduce us to His Father and and invite us into the middle of their relationship..."that tHE LOv E YOU HAvE for Me may be in them" John 18, maybe?

Well, I was there when you were torn apart
Now a piece of you is gone
Somehow you wish that you could only find
A little strength to carry on
You've tried so hard to make it on your own
That your heart has come undone
So I am here to prove that I alone
Have the power to overcome
Don't let your heart be troubled
This world will never keep you down
It will never keep you down
So rise up, my friend
No, this will never be the end
So rise up, my friend
And live again
I didn't want you to feel this way
It's not what life was meant to be
And so for you, my friend, I'll take your shame
You can give it all to me
'Cause you've wrestled demons every day
And they've dragged you to your knees
But in your weakness you will learn to find
That I will always be your strength
In life or in death
Through joy or regret
And all of the secret things you have done
No matter what comes, my friend
Nothing can keep you from the love of God

A song I just heard for the first time that I'd like to dedicate to those of us who fear our secrets are darker than the blood on His side. Including my biological dad.